lonely

so yeah...
I feel so lonely this week just because I am not at school and stuff but also because today for the first time since I got home from school I checked my DA message inbox for there were 1056 from various groups I support and no faves comments llama badges or private messages...
it sounds vain but thats in three weeks and I recently uploaded some stuff and that has recieved nothing and it kinda feels like DA is not supporting me before my bone marrow transplant (21st dec-23rd) and I dunno just feeling kinda sad about it